Mood:  don't ask

I though of this over the week end. And I will lay the facts down in order that I feel directs the readers thoughts to understand just was a crimminal Pier Galvan is.  Several hundred years ago a man named Jeremy Bentham propoesed that crime and punishment for crime be measured on the same scale. Just like celsius and kelvin for tempertaure they start at different numerical values but the differences are the same, you do not have to converst one to the other to know howmany degrees change in celsius or kelvin.

 Bentham stated this very simply "All punishment is crime."  This is no less true today than it was in his time.  When humans are mistreated by the legal system that system is engaging in a crimminal act. Crimminlas are therefore justified in retaliating against society who is represented by that system.  I do not blame crimminals who have been abused by the system for the crimes they commit.  I have seen people facing a quarter of a century behind bars for mere use and personal possession of drugs. Others for nothing but minor theft charges in which a shop lifting becomes a "burglary" a "strikable offense"  just because they entered the store without any money in their pockets.

But there is another sort of crime committed by the justice system and this crime takes place when there exists no probable cause for an arrest.  Police are not very intelligent people, if they were they would not be police.  They also do not understand the law nearly as well as they pretend.   There is a "detective" in redlands by the name of william. Just 2 years ago he attempted to tell me matter of factly that he could "arrest a man for indecent exposure for urinating in public"  I told him this was not true.  The then said "so what is that just an urban legend?   I said  no, cops arrest people for doing that all the time, but urinating is public is not indecent exposure because they are urinatinga and not displaying their genitals "lewdly."

 The root of the problem with cops is that they do not know the meaning of words employed by the legislatur, offen unchanged for many decades that the supreme courts have construed.

So, now we come to the graveman of my problem and why pier Galvan like "officer" williams do not seem to understand.  They are only blue coller employees after all and you cannot expect them to read real legal documents with the acumen of a lawyer.

But that is what makes them so dangerous and ultimately why Galvan chose to exploit this shortcomming to his sick and demented desire when he in fact by his own admission had read the police report and had all the information to know that he was maliciously engaging in slanderous lies. 

When Galvan the stupid cholo arrested me, and I call him a cholo because that is exactly how he acted and continues to act.  He tries to come in low with his ugly voice which lacks any real grave modes so he has to force it and he comes off sounding like an ass.  He said to me when I complained to him that they are lying when they go around telling people that I am a "sex offender" because I have never even been chareged with a sex crime.  Lewd conduct in public does falls under the rubrik of "disorderly conduct" and not "sex crimes."

 Cholo, cop then said to me, "I've read the police report, you were on the ten freeway sodomizing yourself with a dildo...I know all about your case, I probably know more about you than you know about yourself"

 A really really dumb thing to say, straight out of some class B cop flick.

He kept using the word "mother fucker,"  I hate that word, it is so stupid and I never use it, but from what I gather "motherfucking me" is his term for speaking to him like he is the clueless ass that he really is because I was on top of every thing, I know the law, I know he is violating it, and I know he is a dirty slanderling liar who took pleasure in lying to college employees characterizing me as a "dangersous sex offender."

He also made the mistake of thinking that he could deny doing this because court records are public.  Lynn Hunter states in her complaint that she did not know my last name, and that she was "told by a friend that I was dangerouse"  that I had "committed lewd conduct and and numerous other crimes"  all of which is not something a person could find out without a full name.    I have never committed any felonies, and have never been on any kind of probation.  I have never done any "crime" that served any selfish purposes, and my lewd conduct is nothing more than an innocuous act of  self-expression, and as one police officer put it, detective Jim Lopez, a rare exception as a cop, who I spoke with for over an hour and gave him sole permission to search my property becasue I trusted him only. He suggested that what we were doing was "for artistic purposes."  I never considered taking personal pictures as art, but when I put two and two together, that it was the trial of tail lights we were seeking in our photos, that was indeed an artistic decision.

 So, now we have established that cholo cop knew the facts, that he had read the police report and that he could  not have engaged in telling people  that I was a "dangerous sex offender" without violating common rules of logic and honesty. He did so then with malice and for personal reasons.

Next I will explain, now he exploited the legally meaningless "arrest" record to accomplish his slandereuos purposes, and how, I have proven him to be a liar far ahead of him, by deliberately taking my case to trial in order that no one would ever be able to make the kinds of claims he is making, but he under the cloak of secracy, against the penal code exploited the fact that I was not there to defend myself and ultimately all that I have suffered is his fault, and he and the police department, and possibly the school will have to pay for this.

Mood:  irritated

Today, I started out wearing a pair of really short shorts and walked all the way to the mall. Lots of honks, and several guys pulled into parking lots and waited for me to pass.

Yesterday a guy circled around 3 times looking at me and then stoped on the other side of orange. I was sitting on the curb by the mall and you could see up my skirt.  He asked me if I needed a ride, but when I crossed the street He said "do you need to go somewhere?  I said well, are you into guys?  He said "no, I'm not, I thought you were a chick" and drove away.  

Thats bullshit. He just changed his mind after seeing me close up.  I am getting too old for this. I still look ok from a distance but close up I am hidious.  Time to commit suicide, or maybe I will try having that cosmetic surgury I was thinking about 5 years ago.

Facial feminization.   But then even five years ago, a guy like that would have at least asked for a blow job.  It was only 4 years ago that a big black guy got me in his truck and begged me to suck him off, and said I was "so beautiful" and he was looking right at my face.  And that was only a few weeks from when another guy got in my car and begged my to suck him off and watched me play with dildos and then another right after him, well, it looks like those days are gone. 

Either I do someting to turn back the clock or I will have to put an end to this life.

 I am afraid to do anything to screw up my ability to have kids, chances are slim but when I imagine meeting another women I instantly think "I will want to have a child"  and that scares me. If I take estrogen shots or worse have my ugly penis cut off, I will be unable to have a normal life from then on.  I have spent 5 years trying to have a normal heterosexual life with two different women and both of them left me.  I dont know if I can do it again, or if any women will give me a chance. I am getting too old and so are my prospects.

Hopefully I will get my car out of the impound yard. STupid pigs!

Today is wednesday. I finished learning a new movement from 'pathetique' sonata.     I went to redlands police to begin an investigation into the violation of my civil rights by those retarded people in that scummy police force. They are so stupid. I want to educate the public on how to end the war on drugs by jury nullification and how our society will improve so much, and best of all it will put 2/3 of the police out of work!

 I will soon initiate a lawsuit against Pier Galvan and the Community college for violating the penal code, for telling people of my 290 status, and libel for characterizing me as a "sex offender" and "dangerouse" which is all such bullshit, they don't know a fucking thing about me.  Retards. I swear people have no clue what mental migits these pathetic pigs are. 

 I remember on the tonight show a man was turned down for a job as a cop becuase he was too intelligent.   Figures, intelligent people will figure out they work with crimminals and begin fucking up all there crimminal activities.

 I flipped off a sherrif today, Too bad, it was a guy I have nothing against and I have met him and he is a nice guy, but I was flpping off his car and I didnt know it was him. Oh, well, he may be another skunk just like the rest of them for all I know, I considred appologizing but I will just put it out of my mind. You cant be a sherriff that long and be a good person.

Amber is really starting to annoy me in class. She chews gum, and hums and it is really annoying.  I wish she would just stop coming to class, I can't stand her anymore. Strange, after five years of friendship, and 3 years of loving her more than my own life it has come to this.

 I am glad we did not have kids, humans are such scum anyways who wants to make another one? I would feel I wasted my whole life if my kid grew up to be a stupid cop.   

This is a true statement. WHite cops are the worste.  Sherriffs too, if jail you are lucky if you get a black sherriff deputy to oversee you.  They are more likely to be reasonable. The white sherriffs are mean and nasty and it is consistant with the fact that most serial killers are white.   Serial killers seek domination over their victims, just like sherriff deputies.

 Fuck the white race, it is a never ending series of disappointments to be white. Our race is weak and pathetic, we are losers, and stupid, a race of mentallly ill freaks.